For years, I gave up candy and soda for Lent- and it was tough but doable. But then I gave up other things and kept the sugary treats on my list of can-haves. I grew older. I became an adult. I decided when I could have the sugar. And then came a time where I didn’t chose to have the sugar– the sugar chose me. I wanted it. I needed it. Sugar became my siren, luring me to rock bottom. I tried to say no. I would go out food shopping and refuse to buy it… But then I’d get home and feel like I was going to crawl out of my skin. I’d ask my husband to pick up something sugary on his way home and then I’d devour it, my body sinking into the feeling that can only be described as, “OH…. MY…. GOOOOOOD.”
Feeling out of control and wanting to regain my life I decided to cut it out cold turkey. I stumbled upon a challenge called “Fed Up” and realized it would probably make sense to cut out all sugar- whether it was #20 on the ingredient list or #2. And boy did it suck. Not the smartest or most descriptive word but there it is: suck. It sucked. EVERYTHING has sugar in it. EVERYTHING. Even my tea had sugar in it. I could eat only the basics: fruits, veggies, meats, and cheese. I was sad. I was hungry. I was mean.
Withdrawal made me mean.
And it got me thinking. I don’t do drugs or smoke. Never have, never will. I only drink on occasion- I’ve never even been drunk. But I’ve suffered withdrawal. What does that say about sugar? It seems like an innocent enough treat. Even children are allowed to have it. And yet you can get addicted to it and taking it out of your system can give you withdrawal.
As I write this and remember my experience, and think about what currently sits in my cabinet, I wonder why and how I let myself hop back on the sugar wagon. And I’m curious about what would happen if I do a less intense version of Fed Up. Maybe allow myself some ranch dip with some veggies? Have crackers with my hummus? Just no candy, junk food, or adding sugar in my tea.
I think it’s an experiment worth trying.
Anyone else have any unhealthy relationship with sugar? Or have an unhealthy habit they’re struggling to kick? Has anyone had success overcoming their addiction(s) and found a happy ending?